you feel very high and positive about something…
you tell select people close to you about what you feel because you can't keep the positive energy to yourself, asking them not to tell other people about it for it may ruin things for you…
because it's something you know for certain would change your life for the better…
but due to information you have gathered, now is not the right time to make it known to everyone…
so you plan for that moment, knowing by that time, it will be well-received…
people you have told support you all the way…
except for one… yourself.
you then start having doubts about the outcome of your plan…
scenarios form in your head both good and bad… yet the bad outnumber the good by leaps and bounds…
so your confidence in the plan starts to chip away… piece by little piece everyday…
yet the positive thinker in you still believes the plan is worth it…
but couldn't give a straight answer when you're asked of it…
so the battle rages on inside you…
ever had that feeling? sucks, right?

yes and sadly it does suck.
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