"if pain must come, may it come quickly.  because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best way possible.  if she has to make a choice, may she make it now.  then i will either wait for her or forget her.  waiting is painful.  forgetting is painful.  but not knowing what to do is the worst kind of suffering a person can go through."

he got this quote through sms a couple of months ago.  he sent this to her via the same two weeks ago after they saw each other where he actually picked her up from work close to 5 in the morning–way down south.  she asked him the night before if they can hang out at starbucks after her shift ends.  initially, he was quite hesitant, thinking about the long drive at such an unholy hour.  eventually, he succumbed to wanting to see her again, and together going to the place he held close to his heart, the place where everything started, with the unforgettable view and the most memorable time he had with her.  he couldn't contain his excitement as he made the long drive.  and as he arrived at her office, he waited for a couple of minutes for her to get in the car which seemed like hours.  when he finally saw her again, she was beautiful as ever and started on their way.  she did most of the talking as he was just thrilled in silence being beside her again.  but sadly, the place was still closed when they got there, so he began the drive back to where he knew another starbucks was open.

they continued their conversations as if they had been together since yesterday.  chemistry was always an instant between them.  he had intentions of asking her how his current relationship situation was, but was afraid that she might blow him off again with either a sarcastic answer, or change to a different topic altogether.  yet he can see in her eyes an uncertainty he had never seen before.  like she wanted to say something, but was either too ashamed or too proud, knowing that she had hurt him before.  yet her actions and the way she talked to him meant something else.  they reached starbucks at a service station and had their fill of breakfast.  conversations were still going back and forth until the time he had brought her home.  she again promised him that they'll see each other again, but knowing her, he's expecting quite a while before that happens.  and upon reaching home, he went to his room, scanned his mobile phone and saw that quote which was perfect for saying what he felt, and sent it to her.

she never replied back.