dear self,

first of all, i'm as surprised writing this as you are reading it.  it's the very first time i'm doing this so please bear with me.  i've been wanting to tell you some stuff but don't know how to go about it.  i mean, we see each other everyday, but for some reason, all this time we've been journeying through life together, we haven't had time to sit, reflect, and talk about what we have done, what we are doing, and what we want to do.  we're halves of one person and being a gemini, our halves are equally different, yet equally the same.  so this new year's was the best time i decided to step up and be heard–at least between ourselves.  i know you're still freaking out at this, but please, hear me out for a couple of minutes.

there are some things i'd like to to tell you and one of them is what a good job professionally you've done this past year.  this is, career-wise, one of the best performances you've had, and one of the most successful, if not the most successful one you've had so far.  i commend you for your dedication to your job and i know that you're enjoying your stay where you're at right now.  i hope that this dedication will continue well into this year.  yet in spite of your professional success and achievement, you have taken some things for granted.  first and foremost is your health.  my god, looking at us in the mirror everyday, i say us gain an additional five to 10 pounds!  damn, no wonder that tummy is really sticking out this time!  although i'm glad to know that you have a plan for this starting this month.  i'll totally support you on this and i know that together we can make a huge step in getting back in shape this year.

another thing i'm proud of is how honest you were this year.  not just with your friends, or with your colleagues, or your family, or with what's happining in society (personally, i really liked and am proud of what you said about the subic rape case) but most important is that you were keeping it real to yourself.  to us.  whenever you felt tearing someone's head off, you showed it.  whenever you felt missing someone, especially her, your tears proved it.  now i know you've been a whole lot emotionally this past couple of years, but what made you strong i suppose is your honesty to yourself.  so what if your friends told you to get over her and somehow you can't?  that doesn't make you less of a man.  it just shows how you do love someone and how that person meant that much to you.  who gives a shit about what others think?  continue keeping it real.  that's what sets you apart from other people.  don't hesitate in saying what you feel.  if you need to wear your heart on your sleeve, then do it.  i'm with you all the way.

on a lighter note, you improved on your movie-watching this year.  you watched a total of 12 films this year, double of the total you've seen during the last two years!  i just hope that this year, you'll be watching it with someone other than yourself or with just a friend.  but, i'll leave the significant other hunting to you.  i'm just the other half, feeding off your accomplishments and sharing on your sorrows.  i totally trust you with your emotions and feelings and i have no doubt in my mind that sooner rather than later, our heart will be beating for someone again.

i know that you know that this year will be different.  i also have that tingling feeling that beyond what lies ahead is a year meant for us.  with the hard work we have had over the last year, i suppose that this time is our time.  we deserve it.  let's go and make it happen.  nothing beats a positive feeling and i also know you're excited.  i know i am.

regards,

your self.