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interview with a beauty queen (part 1)

all of us have a thing regarding how our day or even the week will turn out. sometimes it's defined by how you wake up in the morning, what song you'll hear on the radio on the way to school or the office whether it be on your car or on public transport, or how you're being greeted by people when you arrive, yet others on the most bizarre of things, define their day or week will be good or bad at the taste of their morning coffee. well for me, i always believed that when i start my monday ok, the rest of the week will be the same and vice versa. this past week was different. entirely different. my week was defined on a friday.

for two weeks now, i'm assigned to help out with HR and their recruitment process. which meant doing interviews for applicants. i was taught on how to conduct preliminary and initial interviews. preliminaries would only last around 10-15 minutes while initials would run from 45 minutes to an hour. i had my fair share of doing both and it has been an entertaining, enlightening, informative, and interesting run so far. i have met and talked with different people and i kinda remember how i was when i started out in the corporate world.

anyhow, i started my monday this past week with the thought of "uh-oh, we had an ad again on the newspaper on sunday, so that means there'll be hordes of applicants when i come in." but surprisingly, there were fewer people applying compared to the monday before, when there were already lots of people at the lobby when i arrived at the office at 8:15am (my shift starts at 9am). so i thought to myself, "ok, maybe this week won't be so bad after all." but during the middle of the week, i suddenly had a "down" attack (as described on my last entry). for some reason, i felt so down and sad that the overtime work that i was scheduled to do on saturday (yesterday) seemed not so inviting and not worth doing anymore.

friday came and the only positive thing that came to my attention (well, next to the fact that i was expecting very few people applying that day since it was the last day of the work week) was i was dressed down for the day. sure enough, the day started slow and steady, just the way i expected and wanted it to be. things piled up after lunch when the applicants who were re-scheduled for their initial interviews yesterday started coming in. i volunteered to do all the preliminaries until they run out so the others would concentrate on the initials. at around 4:30pm, all the preliminaries for the day were done, and with a few initials on the table, i decided to help out with one, telling myself "with a staff meeting scheduled at 6pm, i could stretch this one last initial in time for that meeting." so i grabbed the paper with the resume attached and proceeded to the lobby to call that particular applicant. i usually review the resume before proceeding to the lobby so i could be prepared as to the kind of person i'm expecting to talk to, but in this case, i was tired and wanting the day to end, so i just glanced at the name on the resume.

the name was quite long, five in total, including the middle and last names. after reading the name, i looked at the group of people in the lobby, waiting for her (it was a female name) to stand up and follow me to the interview room. she then stood up and started heading my way. she was a pretty lady, tall, almost my height, very slim, simple-looking and has a complexion in which we filipinos call "morena." as she entered the interview room, i did my usual greeting and asked her to take a seat. i commented on how long her name was while writing it on the interview sheet to break the ice and asked her nickname. "just call me kyla. and yeah, i'm blaming my parents for giving me that name. do you know how hard it is when you're filling out official documents when you have a long name such as mine?" to which i jokingly replied, "it's not often that we fill out official documents, do we?" she just kept silent as i continued to finish writing down her information. "when i do have kids of my own, i also plan to give them three first names like 'angelo vincent kyle' or 'trisha nicole angela'," i added. to which she then replied, "they will then feel what i'm feeling now!" and laughed. i then noticed that she was feeling cold. i asked her if she was ok, she told me that she was indeed feeling cold. i offered her my jacket just to make her relax and feel comfortable since i had the notion that she might be nervous. she politely declined and just commented on how cold the air conditioning is in the building. i apologized to her about the temperature and still continued to offer my jacket. she still declined and mentioned that she can manage. i asked her if she was sure, and she calmly said yes. i then gave an introductory spiel and asked for a few seconds to go over her resume before starting the interview process, to which she nodded her head in agreement.

slammed

just as things are going quite well for me, i'm enjoying myself at work for the first time in years, and all is stress-free, you then get hit. not by sheer stress due to work, or the expectations that come with it, nor the sinking feeling that i might not deliver what is expected of me, but the unexplainable, unimaginable, unfathomable feeling that you're….down. just plain, simple, ordinary, feeling of being down. that feeling where everything is not as bright, not as lively, not as entertaining, not as worth living for as it used to be. believe me, i've had this feeling before on a more regular basis. i was kinda hoping that it wouldn't show up for quite some time, given my current professional situation. but as the saying goes, "things come when you least expect it." i have tried to address this feeling before, trying to find a "cure," if there is such, but to no avail. i have also tried to find reasons why i have these episodes, but i always come up with the conclusion that every person on the planet experiences some sort of "down episode(s)" in a lifetime. even after typing these lines on my entry, which i thought would help alleviate the feeling by ranting, do nothing to make me feel better. *sigh* i guess i just have to deal with this for the next couple of days. i just hope that this feeling would be over soon….

it’s coming soon… (pun intended)

just want to give you guys a heads up on site two of my blog. still under construction though, but it will contain the complete opposite of what you read here. being a true blue gemini, i thought it best to express the other side of my personality for a change. the more liberated, openly expressive and mostly r-rated personality (R-21 to be exact). i have to admit that both these two personalities must co-exist in order for me to be, well, me as me can get. get ready to be surprised, shocked and your eyebrows raised for my entries from my other side. visit http://theothersideofmarkie.blogspot.com. it's really coming soon… pun really intended…

only one

as i was driving home last night after a day's work, i saw something that reminded me of what happened to me earlier this year. and suddenly, i found myself down memory lane, like the events of the whole month of march passing right through me like structures along the road. as i ended my nostalgic run, a song on my car stereo played as if to give meaning to what i have done amidst everything that had happened, and it got stuck on me like white on rice. just wanted to share the words of that song which i think i'll be listening to for quite some time:

Only One
performed by Yellowcard

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

early morning stretch

it's 7:45am and i'm writing this entry from the internet kiosk at the office. although i won't start my shift until 9am, being a wednesday, i came to work early to avoid getting caught since the car is banned from the roads today.

i continue to surprise myself daily with the things i'm doing. as i've said before, it has been a while since i had this feeling of enjoying coming to work on a daily basis. if i were still in my former company, i'd be more stressed out than before and i'll just be writing about how work sucks and not have a positive outlook towards my job. i wouldn't have imagined coming to work early, whether to avoid having my car getting caught on the road or not. i guess part of the reason why i wanted to come in early is for me to see my batchmates. all of us have really bonded during the first two weeks of training and became almost like family. although i had to be pulled out of process training to help out with recruitment (part of my position's "initiation") i make it a point to see them on a daily basis. i admit, i really miss being with them. although they're not my direct agents, the feeling is different when we're together. i have been with numerous teams and agents before, but this group of people stand out. i don't know how, i don't know why, but i'm thankful for having each and every one of them on that batch. i can say that for the first time in months, i am stress-free….mainly because of them.

on the flipside, i do miss someone. someone who hasn't made her presence felt since letting me know she has a new job at, ironically, a call center. ironic because she told me before that she'll never set foot on a call center because she doesn't like sitting around and talking. this feeling just hit me last night as i was laying in bed looking back at events while waiting to fall asleep. as i would always say, "it's just one of those days." although i have to admit, i haven't said that phrase in weeks. i guess finally enjoying work overshadowed that almost-weekly feeling. yet, being a gemini, it can't be helped. at least it still reminds me that i am still capable of missing someone. she, in particular, even if things between the two of us abruptly "ended." which reminds me, she'll be celebrating her birthday this friday. i guess i won't be part of her celebration (if she's gonna have one), but that's ok. what's important is that she's happy on her birthday.

a couple more weeks, it's gonna be christmas. my favorite time of the year. time to go back to the highlight reel and revisit the major events that happened to me this year and sum them all up on my yearly countdown. look for that to be posted here by early to mid-december. for those of you keeping track, well, you might know how the chart will look like. who knows, there might be a few surprises in store.

to end things, i also have to admit, i'm beginning to miss seeing another someone, although i just saw her recently…