thank god it's another weekend… well, at least for me.  i'm looking forward to resting my sore body as i go home in a couple of minutes, not worrying about work early tomorrow morning.  day two of getting in shape was yesterday and i guess the pain i'm experiencing is just temporary, a way my body is telling me that it's not used to being pounded like it was years ago.  birth pains, so to speak.  but i'm not complaining, in fact, it's making me realize that i should've done this a long time ago.  the pain is actually a welcome relief for me, and it just adds more motivation to what i'm doing.  day three is tomorrow and i plan on having thrice a week sessions.  so i'm expecting the soreness of my body to continue until it gets used to the routine i'm having.  as the saying goes, pain is just temporary…

on another note, spider-mania has hit the world last week.  i actually saw the movie on opening day with cher and i would have to agree, the sequel does justice and the numbers at the box office speak for itself.  i was kinda hoping there would be a teaser at the end for a fourth installment, but there was none.  but still, the series was successful so i hope they (the filmmakers) continue to make it as good, if not better, than this last one.

a couple of minutes, and i head home.  i'm thinking of going on a dvd marathon later tonight to help relax my aching body…

he stared blankly at the monitor, his chin resting on his cupped hand.  he tried to fill his mind with things he needed to say, but was repeatedly blanked for some reason every time an idea would come up.  he leaned back on his seat and looked around.  silence was with him at that time, and upon looking around, it looked like it was going to be that way for a while.  he ran both his hands thorugh his hair, stopping as they reached the back, and clasped them as his head rested on both his hands.  he stared up, still nothing.  suddenly, the sound of pouring rain echoed thorugh the room.  it was the first time it had rained for months.  he heaved a small sigh of relief, for the humidity in the room would go down a bit as the rain cooled down the warm afternoon.  he stood up and walked towards the screen door, stretching as he goes.  he stared outside as children from across the street started to play in the rain, a welcome respite from the searing heat felt in the afternoons.  he then wandered back into his childhood years, as he did the same once the first fall of rain would hit towards summer's end.  back to where problems were non-existent, and what mattered was having fun with friends.  they would play all sorts of games in the rain–tag and hide-and-seek to name a few–and would even run sprints to see who's faster running in the rain.  then suddenly, the rain stopped.  the faces of the children outside turned from glee to sadness as they walked home as his walk down memory lane ended abruptly too.  frustrated, he went back to his PC, shut it down, then went to his room to finally get some sleep.

clouds

by markie – written at 9:43pm, 6/27/2000

Clouds greet my morning
instead of sunlight through my window
I sit up, blankly staring at my clock
realizing i had only a couple hours of sleep.

As i lay down to rest, i look at my window
and as a tear slowly comes down my cheek, i pray
"help me get through this night, and if morning will come my way,
greet me, not by clouds, but with sunshine i've long been waiting for."

this is one of the few poems i wrote about someone at work.  the overcast skies outside suddenly made me remember this poem, so i decided to use it as my entry for today.  not that i'm in a mellow or sad mood in any way, it's just, i guess, fitting for an unusual summer day like this.

as the saying goes, better late than never.  at the start of the year, i made mention of things to be done regarding my physical well-being in a letter to self.  today, i take the first big step in that direction.  i know it's something that is not going to be easy, but i have psyched myself up for this ever since i got confirmation last week that everything is set in motion.  everything else, well, is up to me and how i do things.  where i am now is a product of my negligence and undoing, and it's time for me to undo it.  i guess what motivates me even more is the amount of resources i have put into this project.  there'll be obstacles along the way, and i know it.  but this is not the first time i have done something knowingly difficult, in which some i ended up triumphed in the end, some where i crashed and burned.  i cannot say for certain how this will go, and i don't want to preempt everything by setting high expectations and putting pressure on myself too much.  yes, there is a goal in mind, and it's good to have focus.  but not too much where in i lose sight of everything else.  time to get it started.  there's another saying that goes, one day at a time.

next monday will be election day.  campaigns are rolling at their highest levels with less than a week to go.  in one of my previous entries, i indicated those who are not going to get my vote and the reasons as to why.  sad to say, with the time left, i still haven't completed the 12 blanks to fill for the senatorial slot.  to date, here are my sure choices:

1.  chiz escudero

2.  ed angara

3.  manny villar

4.  joker arroyo

5.  kiko pangilinan

6.  ralph recto

7.  jamalul kiram III

8.  noynoy aquino

four empty slots still remain.  i don't know whether to leave them blank or to fill them up with my swinger votes.  meaning candidates who can go either way, or has the potential to either do good or flop as a senator (actually, noynoy aquino was part of my swinger vote list who, after taking a good look at his qualifications, ended up on my sure list).  if you'll notice, the count is 4-3-1 favoring the administration slate.  now i have stated before that i'm neither pro or against the administration, it's just that the administration ticket has more qualified candidates.  even if the surveys show the opposition leading the race, who knows what good they will do once they do get elected?  another impeachment proceeding against GMA?  c'mon, what worked for the goose isn't exactly good for the gander.  the problem with most filipinos is that if one solution works for a particular problem, they assume that it will work for all problems.  politicking aside, i also think that majority of filipinos want to just move on and do what's best for the country, whether people in the senate are pro or anti administration.

if this entry is boring you, i don't care.  i was raised to be an upright filipino citizen by the schools i went to, so sue me.  i guess another thing that's unfortunately true about filipinos is that we sometimes don't care anymore.  and that's what we have to change.  starting with by going out and voting on may 14.