as a professional wrestling fan since the sixth grade, i was shocked to learn the tragic and sudden death of wrestler chris benoit earlier today.  i was just checking my yahoo email when i saw a news headline that read, "wwe wrestler, wife and son found dead." i immediately checked it out, thinking it was one of those old veteran wrestlers in their 70s or 80s but my jaw literally dropped when i read his name.  until now i'm still speechless about everything.  i mean, he was one of the more recognizable figures in the professional wrestling industry, even an icon long time wrestling fans like myself, most especially to the canadian people.  he was still in his prime, like the late eddie guerrero when he also died just over a year ago.  as a wrestler, he was one of the most technical and mat-savvy figures to ever grace the squared circle.  his competitiveness was second to none, and his toughness was equal only to the enormous heart he had for the business.

i seldom write two entries in a day, but i'll make a special exception on this one.  professional wrestling has lost one of it's bightest stars, and i join millions of fans around the world deeply saddened by his untimely demise.  the crippler will definitely be missed.  may he rest in peace.

turning the tv on upon returning home from work and a good gym session yesterday, i flipped through the cable channels until i came across one which featured the movie sweet november.  'twas already at the part where charlize theron was offering keannu reeves to stay in her place for a month after rescuing two dogs from a certain place.  in any case, most of you know that this is one of my top favorite movies of all time, so naturally i stopped my channel surfing and watched it until the end.  in so many ways, this movie relates so much to me.  character-wise and story-wise, it's like metaphorically looking through my life from a third-person point of view.  granted that in real-life, there was more than one woman who came into my life as compared to just one in the movie in charlize's character, all of them have–in one way or the other–have something in common with her character.  from their being spotaneous to predictable, to their wacky, happy-go-lucky ways and being downright serious and passionate (in more ways than one).  the only thing that the story of the movie and my personal life have in common is the ending.  all that's left is the memory of a wonderful, yet non-existent form of a relationship.

i'm not much of a sucker for romantic films, but this one really tops my list.  even though i have a dvd copy of it and that i can watch it over and over again anytime i want, the beauty of what happened yesterday was that the television can give you something you'd least expect.  in this case, it was a treat.  though the ending may never change, it really and clearly shows that art imitates life.  or is it the other way around?

"if pain must come, may it come quickly.  because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best way possible.  if she has to make a choice, may she make it now.  then i will either wait for her or forget her.  waiting is painful.  forgetting is painful.  but not knowing what to do is the worst kind of suffering a person can go through."

he got this quote through sms a couple of months ago.  he sent this to her via the same two weeks ago after they saw each other where he actually picked her up from work close to 5 in the morning–way down south.  she asked him the night before if they can hang out at starbucks after her shift ends.  initially, he was quite hesitant, thinking about the long drive at such an unholy hour.  eventually, he succumbed to wanting to see her again, and together going to the place he held close to his heart, the place where everything started, with the unforgettable view and the most memorable time he had with her.  he couldn't contain his excitement as he made the long drive.  and as he arrived at her office, he waited for a couple of minutes for her to get in the car which seemed like hours.  when he finally saw her again, she was beautiful as ever and started on their way.  she did most of the talking as he was just thrilled in silence being beside her again.  but sadly, the place was still closed when they got there, so he began the drive back to where he knew another starbucks was open.

they continued their conversations as if they had been together since yesterday.  chemistry was always an instant between them.  he had intentions of asking her how his current relationship situation was, but was afraid that she might blow him off again with either a sarcastic answer, or change to a different topic altogether.  yet he can see in her eyes an uncertainty he had never seen before.  like she wanted to say something, but was either too ashamed or too proud, knowing that she had hurt him before.  yet her actions and the way she talked to him meant something else.  they reached starbucks at a service station and had their fill of breakfast.  conversations were still going back and forth until the time he had brought her home.  she again promised him that they'll see each other again, but knowing her, he's expecting quite a while before that happens.  and upon reaching home, he went to his room, scanned his mobile phone and saw that quote which was perfect for saying what he felt, and sent it to her.

she never replied back.

i've been tagged by liezl about my vanity status.  sure enough, the result i got was satisfactory.  if the end result percentage was at 35, i would really object!!  🙂  in any case, here are the results of that tag:

You Are 32% Vain

Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all. You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

How Vain Are You?

hmmm… who to tag? erlyn and trina.  i'd like to see how vain these people are!  hehehehehe!!!  😀

i changed my template today.  i was thinking that it's been too long since i last changed the feel for my blog site.  still affected by my last entry, simplicity was on my mind regarding my new template.  at least readers won't have to scroll all the way down to see the pictures, links and tagboard as this template has three columns.  i had to settle for the color blue because had there been black in the selection of color schemes, i would've chosen that since i'm not in the mood to change the ambiance.

i particularly liked the picture of the lighted match.  frankly because it's close to symbolizing what i think is my purpose in life:  to illuminate or give light to friends and people and when it's done, i'm being slowly fizzled out.  in any case, i also like how the picture was taken.

nothing in store for me for the upcoming weekend.  good thing i already have the complete first season of heroes which i borrowed from my colleague.  i'm sure to finish that during my days off.  plus, something to look forward to next week is the movie i have long been waiting for, transformers.  i already claimed the ticket i reserved online last week, so hopefully the building anticipation and then finally seeing the movie would lift my spirits up.

though i have changed my template, i'm still not 100% sure i'll be keeping it this way.  please feel free to let me know what you think.