tomorrow's gonna be my last day at work for the week, then i'll be taking a much deserved vacation until june 3!!!  10 days of no work… well, not totally since i'll be coming to the office to check my emails so as not to get swamped when i get back.  well, at least no work stuff to be seriously thought of for 10 days.  where am i going?  well, i originally had planned to go back to puerto galera, but it's the month when the car's registration needs to be renewed, so i have to take care of that first.  i'm not sure if the road trip me and my friend reggie planned a couple of weeks back will push through, but if it will, then i'll take that.  as for how i'm physically feeling, i'm much better than yesterday, the meds finally taking effect.  i'll be taking another one in an hour and hopefully that'll be the last one.  i'm not really into taking meds except when really, really needed.  i'd rather have nature run it's course and my body develop it's own antibodies.  but since i had to go to work, i was forced to have my med intake.  at least i'm feeling much better now and looking forward to that vacation!!  🙂

for lack of something to post for today, i'm still sick.  yes, i'm still in the office, still no better than yesterday.  my colleague gave me some medicines he recommended for me to take, so i took one.  the bad thing is, it's not a no-drowse medication, so within a couple of hours, i was sleepy as hell!!

i really feel awful today… 😦

i'm having a bad case of cough and colds, yet i'm still at the office instead of resting at home.  because for me, as long as i can drive or walk, i'll report for work.  besides, i can still do my daily functions, though at a much slower pace.  plus, it's depressingly hot at home–weather-wise that is–and i've been having a hard time sleeping for the past couple of days because of it.  what's more irritating is that when i cough, a sharp, numbing pain simultaneously goes through the back of my head, rendering me motionless for a couple of seconds while the pain subsides.  it happens too whenever i blow my nose.  and my voice goes from hoarse to sickly deep every now and then.  and yet i'm still thinking of going to the gym after my shift, believing that once adrenalin starts pumping through my veins, i'll feel a lot better.  one colleage suggested that sex is a natural analgesic and that i'm lacking–severely, as she put it–that's why i'm getting sick.  well, i'm not getting any of that anytime soon, so scrub that as well.  in any case, i'm fine.  going to the gym will be a last-minute decision.  i brought my gear along just in case.  if not, well, head straight home and hopefully get some sound sleep this time.  but if you're gonna ask me, i'd rather have adrenalin pumping and getting tired after so as to be primed in going to sleep, no matter what the weather is anyday.  *sigh*  hope this goes away soon…

here's something i'd like to share.  it was forwarded to me through text a couple of weeks ago by an old acquaintance.  it's from the movie, meet joe black.  though i haven't had the chance to see the movie, what the line states is what i think is the basic truth about love and falling in love.  nowadays, people seem to be too careful in taking risks when it comes to love and relationships.  i can vouch for that because i did the opposite and i always end up on the losing end, but that doesn't matter anymore.  what's important is you stuck to your guns.  so the qoute comes from william parrish and he says,

"love is passion, obsession, something you can't live without.  if you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with?  fall head over heels.  i say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back.  and how do you find this person?  forget your head and listen to your heart.  i'm not hearing any heart.  run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back.  because the truth is, there is no sense living your life without this.  to make the journey and not fall deeply in love–well, you haven't lived a life at all.  you have to try.  because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

ever had the feeling that you know that something's coming up from out of nowhere?  well, i've had this creepy-slash-antsy feeling since last week that something's going to happen to me.  i don't know if it's good or bad and i still can't quite put my finger on what it is, but i definitely know that it's for me… or at least it has something to do with me.  i try to shake it off or try not to get distracted by it, but it keeps coming back.  i try to face it by thinking of what the possibilities that would be, but i always come up short-handed with… well, nothing.  one thing i know for sure is that it's definitely nothing to do with my upcoming birthday because one, no one cares if it's my birthday, and two, i don't make such a big deal out of my birthday.  it's just an ordinary day for me because i don't feel at all special and don't get treated special by anyone i know.  but whatever that is, well, i just hope it springs up sooner rather than later.  i'd rather face it now than go through the agony of being much ado about nothing.  don't you hate it when that happens?