Here’s a quick question:  what if you found out that the woman you like turns out to be in a relationship…  with another woman?

 

I honestly thought that query wouldn’t come across me.  But it did.  My initial reaction?  “I never thought.”  Yes, that incomplete.  Somehow, I thought that on the flipside, when women come across hot guys that turn out to be in a relationship with another guy (I still cringe at that thought, ugh), they react with disappointment; but for me, I somehow would be “turned on” at the thought.  But…  like I said, “I never thought.”  How did I get to know this information?  From sources who know that I have a thing for her.

 

I suppose the more next question after that is, would I still pursue her?  Or more importantly, would I look at her the same way?  I guess lucky for me, I still haven’t gotten to that stage that we really are friends.  Admittedly, I still feel that tingling feeling everytime she would greet me by name when we do come across each other.  But that is exactly how I would describe our current relationship.  Just colleagues.  Why haven’t I taken it further?  Well, she works days and I work nights.  And the only time I get to see her (mostly, because she doesn’t see me) is when I pass by her area on the way to badging out at the end of my shift.  Of course, I make sure I do pass by her area just to get a glimpse of her (even though there is a shorter way).  She has this aura around her and a spell-binding gaze on her lovely eyes and smile that makes me stupid speechless whenever she looks at me as I attempt to initiate a conversation during those passing moment times, and all that I can muster is, “how are you?”

 

I also thought that maybe she’s just experimenting.  I mean, she did have an ex-boyfriend.  After all, she’s still young.  Who’s to say that this may just be a phase she’s going through, right?  In any case, the next step for me is to try and bring it up a notch; keyword being “try.”  I suppose being friends is a good start.  Maybe if I can get to that level, I could somehow paint a picture of her current personal life.

 

But then again, I have to get past those gorgeous eyes and killer smile.  Right.  Whoever said that that was easy enough?