i’ve mentioned on numerous occasions that i’ll be more updated here in my blog.  and on those same occasions, i end up failing to be true to that statement.  i can’t seem to find out why, or whether i still have what it takes to write whatever i feel on a more personal level (rather than mostly political and social, as you may have noticed).  so last night, i took the time to go and backread on almost half of all my blog entries, starting from the most recent.  not just the entries, but the comments as well.  it took me until way past midnight, but i remember smiling at each and every entry i’ve made over the years.  yes, given that most of my entries were quite sad in nature, and even harsh to some people; but as i have always been, i never, ever hold anything back.  in going back through those posts, i hoped to rekindle the fire that made me start blogging in the first place.  last night’s trip town memory lane helped a bit, creating that spark again that will hopefully result in the flame burning brightly again.  maybe i need to backread some more, but at least that’s a start.

as they say, sometimes you need to go back a step or two in order to proceed two or three steps forward.  i just hope that with the success of my initial goal this year, it would rub off here as well.  i’m not making any promises… yet, but with accessing history at my fingertips, i hope to find my way back to where i want to be.