it's a rainy saturday night and i'm at home, in front of the computer with rock ballads setting the background tune for hours of melancholy. after days of wringing my brain dry of data gathering, creating write-ups, deliberating, editing and finalizing mid-year performance reviews for my team, i could finally have some time for myself. now don't get me wrong, i've done my fair share of relaxing last night when i went out to see miami vice on the big screen (which is an ok movie, by the way) and by driving around the city, getting a glimpse for the first time in months how metro manila looks like in the early to mid-evening. for tonight, with the rain as the supporting cast member, i go to wish mode. it's pretty self-explanatory really, i just look back at the times when things went wrong, wishing they didn't. in other words, looking at my pathetic, miserable, loser of a personal life, amidst the screaming guitar melodies of slash and joe satriani, and churning vocal harmonies of axl rose and sebastian bach, wishing fate could cut me just a little bit of slack and having things my way for once. in any case, that's one way to spend a rainy saturday night. and i found a perfect song to carry with me at least until this wish mode feeling wears off. i'd like to share the words with everyone and i hope you get to listen to the tune some time. it perfectly describes how i am, how i really am. i'm alright.

BREATHE
by Greenwheel

I'm all right
I'm all right
It only hurts when I breathe
I'm all right
I'm all right
It only hurts when I breathe
when I breathe
It only hurts when I breathe
when I breathe
It only hurts when I breathe

wish i had a beer handy…