this is one of the very few and rare times that i arrive home from work with no one to greet me as i go through the front door. wherein the sound of high-pitched silence is only broken by the sound of the clock on the wall ticking time away, the fridge turning on and off, and the occasional wind chimes hitting each other as a gentle breeze passes by. and in those very few and rare times i experience this, i feel a sense of peace. no chattering on the background, no sound of the radio nor footsteps walking about, not even the sound of people actually being physically present (wherein even though the place is quiet, knowing that there are other people in the house, it adds a little sound to it).

this is only possible because the rest of the family attended a wedding of a neighbor held somewhere in the batangas/tagaytay area and won't be back until later this evening. yet inasmuch as i adore and love my family that much, it is a welcome relief from time to time to experience silence around the house. heck, i don't even have my winamp on and set the landline phone ringer to off while i'm writing this (at this point in time i don't care who calls). i guess this is how i long for the silence that i need to somehow get away from all the things i do everyday (even if i enjoy what i am doing) and just sit back, put my feet up and, as the depeche mode song goes, "enjoy the silence." where i could just clear my mind of everything and be one with the nothingness silence brings. although i'll be having the tv on before i go to sleep a little bit later on, these few minutes of me not speaking, and only hearing the clacking of the keyboard as i type this along is a warm and fuzzy feeling for me. many people may find silence deafening, though at times i don't blame them, but it is only in silence where we could get in touch with our real selves and for a few precious minutes, calm the soul and the spirit down and give it a rest from all the turmoil, uneasiness, and confusing chaos of everyday life. some people go to the beach, retreat houses or even hideaway resorts just to get the silence they want to experience, but lucky for me, it found it's natural way over here and i'm not about to waste any single second of it.

it'll be a very long time before i experience this again. i guess what i'm trying to impart is to not take silence for granted. given, being home alone is quite boring. but if you know how to adjust yourself and even for just a few minutes, just sit down on the couch or on the bed and stay still, silence can be a very good thing. it might be even a form of yoga or self-reflection for some. you'll never know how refreshed you'll feel when you slowly start to go back to reality and the sounds of real life get back to their normal volumes. so, until then….

ssshhh…..

enjoy the silence