just as things are going quite well for me, i'm enjoying myself at work for the first time in years, and all is stress-free, you then get hit. not by sheer stress due to work, or the expectations that come with it, nor the sinking feeling that i might not deliver what is expected of me, but the unexplainable, unimaginable, unfathomable feeling that you're….down. just plain, simple, ordinary, feeling of being down. that feeling where everything is not as bright, not as lively, not as entertaining, not as worth living for as it used to be. believe me, i've had this feeling before on a more regular basis. i was kinda hoping that it wouldn't show up for quite some time, given my current professional situation. but as the saying goes, "things come when you least expect it." i have tried to address this feeling before, trying to find a "cure," if there is such, but to no avail. i have also tried to find reasons why i have these episodes, but i always come up with the conclusion that every person on the planet experiences some sort of "down episode(s)" in a lifetime. even after typing these lines on my entry, which i thought would help alleviate the feeling by ranting, do nothing to make me feel better. *sigh* i guess i just have to deal with this for the next couple of days. i just hope that this feeling would be over soon….