the past week was “busy” to say the least. though the only main event was my brother’s birthday celebration, it was made more special with my mom coming home on that same day. she finally decided to come home after her nearly six-month stay in the US to help with our family’s struggling finances. a few weeks before, i openly told her to stay on, since she had a chance to find a permanent job together with gaining a working visa. that could really help us out, considering that we three siblings that were left here can fend for ourselves, as compared to her coming back home with a little money saved and with no concrete plans of what to do next. i guess she wanted to renew her visa here first before going back there and stay for a longer period of time and hoping to get that chance of obtaining the working visa again.

it’s kinda awkward around the house during her first few days back here. i even did the laundry and cooked dinner even when she told me that she’ll do it. force of habit i guess. well, at least in a good way. it goes to show that we siblings really trained ourselves well to survive without her doing much of the household chores and other stuff around the house. i guess the only thing i miss the most is having my privacy when i get home from work. that is the only thing i look forward to coming home. being able to sit and think without anyone disturbing me, or knowing that someone is there. especially nowadays when i constantly think of donna. i haven’t really talked to my mom about her, although she was able to meet her last saturday during my brother’s birthday party. of course, the teasing came from my uncles and cousins about her being at the house twice before, and them getting to know her before my mom did, but the good thing about it is that my mom took it all in stride. of course i’ll tell her everything when the opportunity comes. i just hope that she receives her just as warmly as my cousins, uncles, aunts, and my brother and sister did. right now, i’m having that “she’s-too-good-to-be-true” syndrome. although not in the real sense of the phrase, it’s that feeling where everything is going smoothly with the people around me about her, but again, there’s the catch. my uncle even asked my mom, “do you like donna for your son if ever they get the chance to be together? yes, she does have a boyfriend, but you can never tell.” mom just kept silent, maybe politely not commenting until she knows the real deal, but smirked in a way that would mean “yes.” with the coming months, especially on my birthday, i just hope things would be better for me.

everyday, i still reminisce that easter sunday getaway with donna, and how much i miss her being the way she was on that day. i’m currently working on something for her, i just hope that it’ll not be in vain when the time comes. but even if it is so, at least i could say that i would’ve done what’s right for me and maybe for her too. these next few weeks will be critical. i’ll explain more on my next entry, most likely on the first week of may. i hope that just as the cloud clears the way for the sun to shine outside, the same could be said for me and my continuing fight for what i believe could be something worthwhile for donna and me.