finally, after weeks of hibernation, i’m able to write new entries again. and what better way to start off a new entry than a weird thing that happened to me yesterday morning. it was around 9:45AM, and i was awakened by the message alert tone of my cell. i thought, “who would send me a message this early?” still half-asleep, i reached for my cell and opened the message. lo and behold, it was a YM SMS message from none other than lisa asking me, “u there?” all traces of drowsiness and sleep vanished in a way i couldn’t have imagined. i stared at the screen of my cell for maybe a full two minutes, thinking if i should reply or not. i had promised myself that, with the way things ended between lisa and me, that i wouldn’t initiate any kind of communication until God knows when. thousands of thoughts ran through my mind as i contemplated on replying back or not. “why did she sent me a message?” “is this a way of her saying or making up for all the promises she made?” the questions went on and on inside my head, until i finally hit the reply button and started typing away. “uh, yeah… wats up?” i said, not really certain on what else to ask. waiting for her response was like an eternity. finally, she replied with, “is dat really you?” adding more confusion to my already bewildered mind, i replied, “wat do you mean is dat rily me? yes, its me, quite surprised dat you sent me a msg.” suddenly, doubts raced across my mind, thinking if it was really her or just someone messing around using her YM ID. but it was still impossible, i thought. i admit, there were several times that i saw her go online, especially during the mornings when my shift is about to end. and i also admit that there were times that i opened a message box to send a message to her, but recalling what i promised myself, did not proceed and just closed the dialogue box. i still wondered, until came the reply with the punchline, “it is you! just checking you out yun lang po (that’s all). have a nice day!” i felt like one of those Japanese anime cartoons falling flat on the ground after a certain punchline or practical joke has been delivered at my expense. my mind suddenly went blank. and the first thoughts that came to my mind after minutes of gathering my wits was “what the hell…? what was that all about?” i really thought there was some kind of real purpose or meaning why she sent me a message. pardon me if i’m jumping to conclusions, but how would you feel if someone who left you hanging and haven’t talked to for almost two years, finally asking, “u there?” you would expect something, right? but noooo. after that episode, my day virtually went downhill. until now, i’m still kinda “in the dark” of all that’s happened in the last 24 hours. if this is a way for her to try to bring some sense of closure between us, well, i dunno. i’m still trying to make sense of everything. i don’t even know how to end this entry. but i guess one saying that comes to mind is, “some things aren’t meant to be explained.” but again, “everything has a reason for happening.”